Well today was a completely shit day. It ended pretty well though. And to make things even better class will more than likely be canceled tomorrow night.
princess-valhalla and I got together to watch the oscars and we’ve already killed a family size bag of doritos and the show hasn’t even started yet.
This customer literally just plopped his baby on her back on the floor of the lobby and started changing her diaper in the middle of a full waiting room. What the fuck is wrong with people.
So I feel really nauseous for some reason and I’m stuck at work for probably another five hours. This saturday is going great.
Why do I even want to do this for the rest of my life? I hate girls so much. I hate my classmates, I hate my teachers, I hate the fake ass peppy vibes they try to put off, I just hate it here. I feel so out of place every damn day. But I love cutting hair. I swear I should’ve just gone to a barbering school. Today is just NOT a good day. Fuck everything. Sorry for bitching twice in the past hour.
Seriously never felt the need to punch a bitch in the face so hard in my life. You confront me a second time and call me childish for having the decency to walk away from your bullshit the first time but when I put up a good argument as to why I can’t stand you and I walked away, you say “fuck you” & walk away? What planet are you even from you fucking cunt. I swear I wish she’d fucking hit me so I could just go off. Ugh. 3 & a half more hours.
It’s sad that I can go days now without seeing my brother and not even thinking about it. I mean it just kind of hit me tonight walking towards the bathroom to brush my teeth, passing his bedroom, & noticing it was empty for the umpteenth time in a row.
I never realized how attached I got to him honestly. We’re so close in age and such polar opposites that we hated each other as kids. Once we hit high school though we became best friends. He’d drive me anywhere I wanted and always bought me lunch after school and we would just hang out and talk about each others’ day. If we’d gone more than a day without having a face to face conversation he’d just walk into my room, sit down on my bed and let me vent.
I know it’s selfish. But I guess I took for granted that I was always the more outgoing one while he was always home with not very many friends. But he was always happy for me and right across the hall no matter what. Now that he’s been dating this new girl and it’s pretty serious, he barely spends any time at home. I literally can go a month without even receiving a text from him. When he actually is home it’s like he’s annoyed by my presence. Snaps at me for no reason and is just ready to get back to his girl as soon as he walks through the door.
Like I said, I know I’m being selfish. He was there for me no matter what when I was barely home and couldn’t stand any member of my family including him. Now it’s his turn.
I dunno it just hurts. But I really am glad he’s happy. Ignore me and my sap late night thoughts. Goodnight.
Snow day. No work or school for two days in a row? So rare. Time to lay in bed with some Netflix and coffee all day.
How do people live alone? Especially without pets? I’m only alone for the weekend, today’s the first day, AND I worked all day so I’ve only been home all of five minutes and I already feel this creepy sense of loneliness that’s only getting stronger with every passing minute. I’m so pathetic.
I want to stop caring. I want to stop wondering and making myself go crazy. I want to stop thinking about you. But most of all I want to stop loving you because it hurts too damn much and you clearly don’t feel the same.
I swear if I dream about you one more goddamn time I’m gonna throw a fit like a 3 year old. I mean seriously dude. Why.